Sunday, September 22, 2013

That old gay guy in the sauna

There was always a sense of rush whenever I arrive in the gym. I'd go straight in the locker room, change clothes, do my routine, cool down a bit after, hit the sauna for a few minutes, shower and then off to my next schedule. 

But him, I always see him there. Most of the time inside the changing area, or in the sauna, or in the steam room. He would stand there in a corner pretending to watch the television, but if you look closer, you'll notice his eyes are always restless, waiting for something. Or looking. As boys and men strip to gear up for workout or office or school, his eyes roam the area. 

Always he wears that long white towel around his waist, emphasizing more his melon-like bulging stomach. His skin a little wrinkled. He's probably twice my age, possibly older than my father. He's bald. His face always connotes a sly smile, at some point evilish, always scheming. 

In those times that I passed by him, I noticed he was always catching my gaze. During the first few times, I would look at him straight in the eye with my infamous devilish stare which literally translates to "fuck off or I'll strangle your neck." But he didn't budge. Instead he just smiled and made me feel more awkward. So the next time, I found myself trying in all my might not to throw even a glance towards him. 

At one point, after finishing a tough workout, I went straight in the sauna to relax a bit before covering a basketball game. As I sat inside, I noticed I wasn't alone. He was there, sitting in that dank, dark corner again flashing that devilish smile of his. I tried ignoring him. I closed my eyes as I tried immersing myself in a far away thought. But I was unsuccessful. 

He moved and positioned himself closer to me. From that, I was already building a plan inside my head. I thought the moment he touch me, I will punch him in the face and drag his ass all the way to the reception area and report him. But he didn't do anything except from that point, he made annoying sounds using his mouth. Smacking his lips, rolling his tongue continuously - of course I knew what he was trying to convey for clearly I wasn't born yesterday.

When I opened my eyes and looked straight down at him, there's that smile of him again, his tongue gliding around his ugly lips disgustingly. 

It was too much for me. I tried my best restraining myself from being violent. Instead, I stood up. But before I could reach the door, I said "fuck you" in the coldest, hate-filled manner I could muster.

The following days, he was no longer trying to catch my gaze. But as I quietly observe I noticed a few things from other gym-goers. Some of the boys, whenever "old pervert guy" enters the sauna, would not hide their annoyance and would immediately leave. Some would even roll their eyes. 

I also saw him going after a guy but was blatantly rejected. One time, there were these two guys hitting at each other inside the sauna. And so I left to give them their well deserved privacy. Then came "old pervy guy" and in a snap, the two boys left the sauna room and head for the showers. But "old pervy guy" did not stop them. He followed them and stood there in front of the shower door breaking the "force field" between the two. But the most disgusting thing is when, at the corner of my eye, while I was changing clothes in the locker room, I caught him removing his towel, intentionally flashing his ---- that I can't even talk about. It was way worse than nightmare.

From then on, I looked at him like a vile creature. Someone who should just disappear so the world will be a happy place again. But then, pity. I don't know how to say it, but I kinda feel sorry for him. But again, that as another arrogant thing for me to say. 

I wonder, if he happens to be a young gorgeous looking guy, would he get the same treatment he's getting? Is he far from guys of my age getting blowjobs and handjobs inside the sauna or the steam room? And then for some reason, those question makes me sad. 

I still see him in the gym. And I still don't like him. But I don't know. There's something different that even up to now, I don't know what it is.

Yesterday, while changing inside this private changing stall in the locker room, I noticed a new vandal, in bold, saying: "DAPAT HINDI PINAPAYAGAN SA SAUNA/STEAM YUNG MATANDANG BAKLANG PANGET."

I never know what to make of it. But I thought, maybe it is true. That this world we're living in was never never kind. Hopefully I'm wrong. 

10 reaction(s):

Jjampong said...

it will never be a kind world, human nature brought it to that state

curious question... does he just stays in the locker room or sauna or does he pump some irons?

Désolé Boy said...

Jjampong - I noticed he usually attends one of those group activities where they dance or something...I don't know exactly.

JM said...

Unfortunately, it is his own doing - and it is also my fear as well. I don't want to grow old becoming like him.

kalansaycollector said...

grabe mukhang modus na niya yun at mag-abang ng mga young boys. pero ang lakas ng loob niya ha?

im thinking baka may pumapatol din siguro kasi kung wala, hindi naman siguro siya magkakaroon ng lakas ng loob...

or baka talagang hobby niya.

ang creepy lang ni lolo. the phantom of the gym ang drama.

Javes said...

I feel sorry for him, too. Society would dictate that at his age, he should have someone he'll grow old with na. :(

Lash Sher said...

Some people just doesn't know their place in the society--the gay society, especially. It's sad but true. That's why it is important to know when to pounce and when to back off. Some people, young or old, don't get it e. Kaya nga when I'm in that kind of situation, I always have to be cautious. Kung alam kong ang isang tao ay yung tipong out of my league, bakit pa ako mag-aaksaya ng oras di ba? I don't push my luck like that. LOL!

Geosef Garcia said...

I am not entirely sure kung ano ang magiging stand ko dito. Kung maiinis ba ako o maaawa na lang sa kanya.

Sabihin na natin na indecent ang trip nya. Pero marami rin naman gumagawa ng ganon eh, if not all. In dry saunas, steam rooms, jacuzzis, bathhouses, massage parlors, etc. Young and old gays alike. Nagkataon lang na matanda, mataba, at panget siya. So malas na lang niya.

What I'm trying to say is that I won't judge him, as long as wala naman siyang napeperwisyo or pinipilit. Live and let live kumbaga. Basta kung mapatalsik man siya, bahal na siya.

I thank you. *bow*

Blakrabit said...

Tsk tsk. Sadness and annoyance is taking up the same space in my heart for that guy. I wish him happiness nalang.

FiftyShadesOfQueer said...

in the first place, mali ung ginagawa niya at ang ginagawa ng karamihan sa sauna. secondly, malupit nga naman ang mundong ito na mapanghusga sa itsura. things would have been different if he looked different.

Anonymous said...

Your words are full of anger yet all I see and feel while reading this post is your pity towards the guy. Either you are sadden by what he's been reduced to or it's fear that someday, you or someone you know may be just like him. Or maybe I'm just deflecting my own image.

Before, whenever I see them, I try to avoid them. Then I tried a different avenue. I started talking to them. And the sadness and pain that they shared... well it is something. Unfortunately I had to stop. Because there are those that grew old and are no longer "acceptable" and those that are just plain perverts. To them, I say, I'll see them in hell.



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